If you’re juggling too many things, and you drop one,
it will break. You will have less things to juggle.
My experiences have been similar to the above quote. If you’re reading this and you’ve read my other post about how to decide, you’d know that stress and I do not mix well. That would be why I deem it very difficult to find a balance among all the chaos that life ensues upon us. Of course, we make choices and they lead to the outcomes we end up experiencing but, you know, some times we cannot help it and life throws us into a situation. These situations may become difficult to complete when there are other tasks at hand. Some people thrive in such environments, and I can too. However, when there are too many tasks I give up easily.
That was how last summer went, after I began my 2nd placement. Mid way through — I think my brain had a short circuit — I stopped functioning properly. That was about the same time I had a wake up call.
When life just happens to throw you lemons, I do not
have to, always, make lemon juice.
Instead of giving up right away and running from my problems, I should have spoken to my counselor about how I was doing during that time. Sometimes it is okay to feel you are not good enough because that is just being honest and the truest version of yourself. It is fine to confide with others, not everyone is there to judge people. All I had to do was as simple as that, I could not look past the hurt I was feeling and all the negativity. Now that I look back at my life, I realize how much I have grown and that all these events I have experienced have shaped me to be the version I am now. Balance, I believe is navigating through the highs and lows, work and rest, social media and active play. The world cannot be whole, one without the other.
Learning is never ending and so far I have learned that being open and saying what needs to be said, asking the right questions, and being my true self is the best way to find balance. Even when it is chaotic there is balance; for peaceful tides are ahead.